Dear Mum

I am writing to wish you a very happy birthday. I hope that the weather is being kind to you back in Spain. Here it is a balmy and sunny 15 degrees. Esther and William are having their morning nap and then we are going to have a play and some lunch before I take them out for a long walk in the springtime for their lunch time nap.

We are missing you very much. It is only now that you are gone that I realise just how much you did for us in the three weeks you were with us.

Now I am back to unloading the dishwasher, tidying up after 6 meal times a day, loading and unloading the washing machine, sorting the clothes, sweeping the floors, playing with the litle ones. You helped with all of this and it feelslike a mamoth task now that you are gone.

I have no one to talk to or share things with throughout the day, no one to just be here keeping companiable silence and enduring the songs of the jungle gym, and those flowers!!!

We loved having you here with us. I loved the company, even if I did not show it all the time. I loved the freedom that you gave me as I was able to get out and go places with Esther and William, rather than being stuck home alone. I wish I had made more of that opportunity. I wish I had been nicer to you, made the most of having you here. You know that I am bad at that x

Esther and William are missing you. They miss your funny voices, your energetic play and the faces that you pulled. They miss being picked up whenever they cry and not having to wait their turn for their Mummy’s attention.

I wish you could be here all the time.

As always your birthday card is late but is on its way and is sent with heartfelt thanks, love and gratitiude for being a wonderful Mum and Nanny. Thank you for making us laugh and making us smile. Thank you for coming when we needed you. Thank you x

We are counting down the days til July now.

We love you and miss you so so much.

Here are some photos from your stay x