Today I Felt It

Today I felt it.

I felt the snap.

I would like to say that I have controlled it but I don’t think I have.

I think maybe I can though.

I put the babies to bed at 10am and listened as I always do to their monitor as they battled against sleep.

I think Esther actually fell asleep quite quickly. William took the best part of an hour.

I sat and listened.

I was doing other things but I was also listening.

I could feel the bubbling beneath as my nerves began to fray.

Then I felt the snap and I had to stop listening.

I checked for mail.

I considered going out in the garden.

I settled for shutting myself in the bathroom, washing machine on, and vigorously cleaning my teeth.

I know I need to tell David that I need a break soon.

But he is too busy for that.

He is working this weekend.

But I will be alright.

I’ll keep us busy.

I can feel it now though.

It is like a nervous energy has taken over my body.

Has anyone else ever felt like this?

Five minutes of peace over

The boy he sleeps

But now the girl is awake

No rest time for Mummy today x

Starry Starry Night!

Star light Star bright
The first star I see tonight
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight …

This year everything seems to be falling into place for the Edspire household to have a very starstruck Christmas.

I am certain that may daughter, Esther, believes that the whole world has been decorated just for her. Such is her delight at all the beautiful stars around and about every place that we go.

This year our village has added some new lights to its collection and yes, you have guessed it, they are stars! And best of all some of those very stars have been strung in a tree right outside our house.

Esther, and William, think that this is wonderful!

They stand at the window gazing at the stars and exclaiming, screaming even, with excitement.

Here’s to many starry starry nights in the lead up to Christmas x

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