After a long night of not much sleep
Knowing things were not progressing
I woke and sobbed
And I could not control the crying
I was so tired
I was missing my children
I had no clue what was going on
The lack of communication
And the feeling of loneliness is immense
At this hospital you are very much a number on a list
You do not know what number you are
You just know that you are one of many waiting
All in a similar situation to yourself
All hoping to be next to meet their baby
The hospital is over filled
And under staffed
The worst possible combination
And no one seems to agree with what protocol is to be followed
No one seems to play by the same rules
And as an anxious mum to be
It is confusing, upsetting
And exhausting
I broke down trying to talk to the midwife today
Telling her I want to go home
To be with my children
I feel so disappointed and disheartened
And quite frankly on this day
Day 3
I had had enough!
Oh goodness, Jennie. I’m not on Instagram so have just caught up with your posts now and I honestly thought you’d have Sprinkle safely here. I can totally imagine the frustration at how the induction has been managed, the contradictions, the lack of medical staff, etc.
I hope as I type this you’re now having some positive intervention and they’re going to get Sprinkle on her way. There was good reason for induction so I’m surprised they’ve let things dwindle as they have, but then I have no medical background and probably have no right to comment on that other as a mum and I know I’d be feeling the same way as you.
Keep your chin up and keep focusing on the end goal – she will be worth it all.
Hope the next post has a baby photo in it. xxx
Oh bless you Jennie, I do know how it feels. I hope things start moving along again soon, it is such a difficult time.
Nat.x
I have been following what’s been happening on Instagram. I hope things start happening soon. Sending love and hugs x