Today I am 27+1
This is a funny time in pregnancy for me
It is a time when I often feel sad
That I have never had an innocent pregnancy
I have never had a tummy full of baby
And a heart full of hope and joy and happiness
I have always been anxious and scared
It was such a struggle for David and I to get pregnant
5 rounds of IVF ICSI
An IVF twin pregnancy is filled with
Drug taking, scans, medical appointments
Then just as we were allowing ourselves to enjoy that first pregnancy
I almost died
Had to have emergency surgery
And almost lost our long longed for babies
At 27 weeks and 3 days
Esther and William were born
My pregnancy with Matilda Mae
Though relatively straight forward
Was filled with fear
What if I was sick again?
What if this baby was a preemie too?
My pregnancy with Bea came after Tilda’s death
And an early miscarriage
And now with baby 5
Our Sprinkle of Stardust
I am pregnant following a second miscarriage
And with the added anxiety about my relative old age!
I am trying so hard to make the most of this pregnancy
Trying to make the most of growing our last baby
Trying to savour completing our family
It is such a precious time
And at 27 weeks I am feeling blessed
Thankful
To have gotten this far
Growing our fifth baby
Our fourth little girl
I am just so desperate to meet her
To have her safely
And bring her home
Her siblings are desperate to meet her!
Her mummy and daddy are too
Here are some specifics
About how I am feeling this time
This pregnancy
At 27 weeks
Baby
As I am a proud mummy of twins born at 27 weeks
I have a fair idea what our little Sprinkle looks like right now
This is Esther at 27 + 6
So small
So beautiful
So perfectly formed
Right now Sprinkle is a tangle of limbs
And I can feel them all
She is kicking and wriggling away
And every movement is a gift
A magical precious gift
Esther and William have felt the baby now
And they are always asking to feel her some more
Mostly though
Our little Sprinkle is active in the evening
And at night
When we are all in bed
I do love this stage of pregnancy
Even with all the anxiety and fear
Our daughter is growing inside of me
Already developing a routine of her own
A character
Getting ready to be born
And be one of us
Keep wriggling little girl
Keep on having that disco in there
We are all head over heels in love with you
And cannot wait to meet you
Me
This has been a tough few weeks
With Tilda’s anniversary
And knowing that this time next year
All being well
We will have a 9 month old baby
My mind has been in overdrive
Worry, anxiety, fear
My bump is feeling huge now
I believe from online sources
That my uterus is now up to my rib cage
This I can tell through the difficulty that I have
Putting my shoes and socks on
We have done a lot of walking for Tilda
The past week or so
I have really loved being outside
But I am carrying this baby very low
And long walks can leave me feeling very uncomfortable
I am generally feeling quite tired
Particularly in the afternoons
The children are being very good at resting with me
Reading books or watching films
I do love being pregnant
And I am loving my 27 week bump
Logistics
With just 13 weeks to go
Until our Sprinkle is due to be here
David and I have started to talk a little about logistics
Seating arrangements for the car
Is going to be a big consideration
And what to do about a pram
As a home educating mummy
I am out and about a lot
Going from class to class with the children
Exploring forests
Roaming fields
Investigating beaches
There is a lot of in and out of the car
There is a lot of times when a buggy will be required
Sometimes for baby
Sometimes for Bea
And sometimes for all our stuff!
Over the coming weeks
We need to work out how the children will best fit in the car
What pram will best suit our needs and fit in the car
What baby carrier to have that is easy for me to get on and off a lot on my own
And how to minimise strain on my back with all the lifting and transporting
I am a 40 year old mummy of 5
These things need careful consideration and planning
It really is a military operation
Being able to successfully get out of the house
Stress free!
Sleep
At 2.5 years old we are struggling to get Bea out of our bed
I adore my daughter
I love snuggling up with her at night
We have stopped breastfeeding recently
And now the time is right
For her to move into a room of her own
As much as I have cherished these past two years
With Bea sleeping in my arms
I have missed out on a lot of time with
Esther and William
And my husband
This time
With this second rainbow baby
I am going to try and be a little less crazy about sleep
I want this final baby to sleep close to me
But I want to sometimes be able to put her down
I know it will be hard
I know I will be terrified
But I know that for my family
I have to do it
I want to have a Snuggle Dreami downstairs
And our Snuzpod upstairs
And I want to try my very best to use them both
From the start
I am busy researching safe sleep products
And safe travel products for our last little one
This is my last chance to get it right for our baby
And to share the things we do
And the products that we use
With others to promote the importance of safe sleep
Names
David and I are still in discussions about Sprinkle’s name
Our last baby
Such an important name
And yet I worry about wasting a name
Just in case she does not turn out to be the last!
I still love the names Mabel and Cordelia
But David is putting his foot down and saying no
We both like the name Edith, Edie
And we always have
I think that Sprinkle most likely will be called Edith
So now we are trying to find the perfect middle name
To complement our other daughter’s middle names
Grace, Mae and Hope
Our list currently looks like this
(In no particular order)
Edith Faith
Edith Mabel
Edith Florence
Edith Mae
Edith May
Edith Jean
I think any final decision now
Will be made when we meet our daughter
Style
I have fallen into the winter maternity trap
Of leggings and jumpers
Comfort is key
But this is my last third trimester
And I want to wear my final bump with style
I am currently looking for pretty maternity and nursing underwear
I am also looking at the possibility of some maternity jeans
Never in all my pregnancies have I worn maternity jeans
And I would like to give them a try
At night I love to snuggle in my pyjamas
And nightdresses from The Essential One
I have started thinking about my hospital bag
It is quite likely
Due to my age
That I will be induced if baby does not come early
I am hoping to buy two Snuggle nightdresses for my hospital stay
And for our lazy days at home
These Shnuggle Hugs are simply stunning
And look so soft and ‘shnuggly’ too
And so that is me
That is us
27 weeks together
Sprinkle and me
All being well
13 weeks to go
Until we get to meet our baby girl
And hold her in our arms
We are so in love with you already
Our beautiful baby Sprinkle
So small
So beautiful
So perfectly formed
I used a connecta sling with my 2nd and I love it!! I’ve had it in the normal and toddler sizes! It really easy to use and I have the solar weave one so it’s lightweight and dries quickly!
can you get it on by yourself?
So exciting Jennie… I can imagine that each pregnancy has been littered with anxiety and worry, but you look relaxed and happy with your sprinkle! Enjoying following your blog… I’m about 1 week behind, so good to see what stage you’re at! We are similarly trying to work out logistics at the moment! So much to think about!
We have been a bit blase about it all until we started thinking about the practicalities of transporting everyone x x x x x