Six months ago we left our home
For building works to begin
We had no idea then
The size and scale of the project
No clue how long it would take
How hard it would be
For all of us
We are all drained
Physically, emotionally and financially
It has been a very long six months
And now the pressure is on to move home
So much has been achieved in the past half a year
David has overseen the beginning of the project
And is now finishing most of it himself
It is hard work
We are now at a point
Where we want and need to move back in
The house is not finished
But it is time for us to move back
We had hoped that today might be the day
I got up this morning
Packed everything we would need for today and tonight
Packed everything the children need for all their classes tomorrow
Went shopping for food and cleaning products
And bits for the house
But when it came to it
I knew in my heart that the house is just not ready
I seem to be the only person that thinks it is not ready
But for me I think another couple of days could make a real difference
At the moment the floor is not fully laid downstairs
Because of this to get something from the fridge
Or to get a drink of water
Or to go to the loo
You have to put on your outside shoes
Which is fine when you are there for a few hours
But not so great when you have done it
Ten or twenty times
There is no toilet upstairs
So once the children are ready for bed
Decide they need a wee
They would then have to put outside shoes on
Go downstairs
To the toilet there
And they would need an adult to help them
As there is not yet a banister on the stairs
We are all desperate to go home
But I think spending a few days
Doing a few little things
That will make a big difference
Is important
I want us to all be happy and safe
In our home
I am not being difficult
I am being practical
I am doing what mummy is supposed to do
This week has been a bad week
Bea and I have both been poorly with a sickness bug
I have had an infection in my foot
Meaning I was supposed to rest with my foot elevated
And have been in a lot of pain
We have had lots of classes and Home Ed commitments
And on top of all that I am pregnant
I know David is frustrated
I know I have not helped as much as I should
I know all of that
But none of it means
I do not see and appreciate all of David’s hard work
As always I am in awe of David and his many talents
His vision and his drive
His grit and determination to get things done
I love him for all of those things
But we are not all able to be like him
Especially with three small children
At home full time
With needs and bugs and places to be
I know I am not as happy and positive as I could be
I am an emotional wreck at the moment
Hormones yes
But also when we moved out
Six months ago
I always envisaged
I realise now naively
Moving back into a finished house
Ready for us to unpack
And make our home
I did not know then
That the main stay of professionals
Would leave months before it was done
And David would finish the job on his own
Neither David or I thought it would take anywhere near this long
We had not intended to spend any where near as much money as we have
We did not realise the extent of the damage and the dust
To the rooms not being touched
It has been a steep learning curve for us all
It has and continues to really test us
And yes
We are so very lucky
It will be wonderful when it is finished
But we don’t really know when that will be
I have been looking forward for so long
To playing my part at this stage of the process
And I cannot wait to move home
I understand about making it all a big adventure
But I am also a pregnant mother of three small children
And sometimes our heads have to rule our hearts
Tomorrow I am seeing my sister
A night and day away in London for my 40th
Will now be 4 snatched hours between trains
Much of which time taken up with
Collecting Esther from her classes and taking her home
I am not going to feel guilty for taking that time
I hardly ever see my little sis
Then Sunday I will work hard at the house
Cleaning and sorting
Packing and unpacking
Making it ready
And next week we can start anew
Next week can be the week
We find the way back home
Your story will sure to touch every heart who will read this one. Indeed, there is nothing better like finding your way home. It will make your heart at ease and more comfortable.