I am feeling really down today
I have so many positive posts to share with you
About my 40th birthday
Some autumn art work we have done
I have some great reviews coming up
To give you ideas for Christmas
But it is such hard work to get anything done
We are still living in a temporary house
We have no outside space
And as the season changes
Everything becomes harder still
We cannot get washing dry at all
The whole house is just filled with wet washing
And the smell of it
To have the tumble dryer on
While we are at home
Feels like mental torture
As it is in the one room that is our lounge
Kitchen and dining room
The children and I are going a bit crazy
We had no idea we would be so long without all our belongings
All the resources I have for home schooling are packed away in boxes
At the old house
All our warmer clothes are packed away in boxes
At the old house
All our books
Toys
We just brought a tiny selection
And through the summer
It was okay as we went out every day
But we are all so tired from forcing ourselves out everyday
And if I never have to make another picnic it will be too soon
I know that we are lucky to have a roof over our heads at all
I know that it will all be worth it in the end
When we finally move back in
But at the moment things are tough
I cannot keep on spending money
On keeping us busy and out of the house
There are going to be more and more rainy days
When we are not going to want to be outside
We are feeling trapped and claustrophobic
As there is no space to be apart
The Internet does not work properly
Blogging more than a few words is close to impossible
We have no telephone or television
The mobile signal is sketchy at best
I know the end is coming soon
And we will be able to return home
But we are still at least a month away
From going home
I wish we had known before we started
The level of disruption to our lives
The amount of time we would be without our home
It is very hard to be upbeat and happy
When chaos is all around you
I want to go home
Bea has no memory now
Of ever having lived at the other house
She thinks it is Daddy’s house
And the rest of us live here
I think we all feel disconnected from the house
We visit often
Play in the garden
But even that no longer feels our own
It is hard for me to get involved much
With the work at the other house
With three small children to look after too
I don’t know what the answer is
How we make it better
Speed the process up
I just know
That we all need to go home
To feel like we have a home
Where we belong
It sounds hard, but your temporary situation is a daily problem for those without any choice. Soon you’ll be moving back into your house, which has been designed to your exact specification.
Others don’t get to do that luxury. They have to stay where they are.
I live in a flat – sure it’s a bit crazy when the kids are here – but I love my little home – I couldn’t be happier actually.
Home isn’t the four walls you’re in, it’s the people and things that fill it.
I know it’s hard – but – it could be a LOT worse.
Kip – you are so right. Thank you. I have been thinking a lot about how lucky we are and I do appreciate everything. I am sorry for whinging on, sometimes it is best to blurt it out here than to actual people. I forget that actual people read what I write. Onwards with a more positive attitude x
Hang on in there….It will be all worth it when you are back in your own home.
Chin up x
I don’t usually comment, but as I switched off my heated airer this morning I thought of you and this post. We don’t have a tumble drier either but Lakeland do brilliant heated airers and one of those has revolutionised my life! A load of washing dries overnight, doesn’t smell damp and doesn’t take up much more space than a normal airer. I understand they’re pretty economical to run as well. Well worth the money… x
Thank you x I am definitely going to have a look as you are the second person to recommend one to me x