Show Me The Way To Go Home

I am feeling really down today

I have so many positive posts to share with you

About my 40th birthday

Some autumn art work we have done

I have some great reviews coming up

To give you ideas for Christmas

But it is such hard work to get anything done

We are still living in a temporary house

We have no outside space

And as the season changes

Everything becomes harder still

house

We cannot get washing dry at all

The whole house is just filled with wet washing

And the smell of it

To have the tumble dryer on

While we are at home

Feels like mental torture

As it is in the one room that is our lounge

Kitchen and dining room

The children and I are going a bit crazy

We had no idea we would be so long without all our belongings

All the resources I have for home schooling are packed away in boxes

At the old house

All our warmer clothes are packed away in boxes

At the old house

All our books

Toys

We just brought a tiny selection

And through the summer

It was okay as we went out every day

But we are all so tired from forcing ourselves out everyday

And if I never have to make another picnic it will be too soon

I know that we are lucky to have a roof over our heads at all

I know that it will all be worth it in the end

When we finally move back in

But at the moment things are tough

I cannot keep on spending money

On keeping us busy and out of the house

There are going to be more and more rainy days

When we are not going to want to be outside

We are feeling trapped and claustrophobic

As there is no space to be apart

The Internet does not work properly

Blogging more than a few words is close to impossible

We have no telephone or television

The mobile signal is sketchy at best

I know the end is coming soon

And we will be able to return home

But we are still at least a month away

From going home

I wish we had known before we started

The level of disruption to our lives

The amount of time we would be without our home

It is very hard to be upbeat and happy

When chaos is all around you

I want to go home

Bea has no memory now

Of ever having lived at the other house

She thinks it is Daddy’s house

And the rest of us live here

I think we all feel disconnected from the house

We visit often

Play in the garden

But even that no longer feels our own

It is hard for me to get involved much

With the work at the other house

With three small children to look after too

I don’t know what the answer is

How we make it better

Speed the process up

I just know

That we all need to go home

To feel like we have a home

Where we belong

5 thoughts on “Show Me The Way To Go Home

  1. It sounds hard, but your temporary situation is a daily problem for those without any choice. Soon you’ll be moving back into your house, which has been designed to your exact specification.

    Others don’t get to do that luxury. They have to stay where they are.

    I live in a flat – sure it’s a bit crazy when the kids are here – but I love my little home – I couldn’t be happier actually.

    Home isn’t the four walls you’re in, it’s the people and things that fill it.

    I know it’s hard – but – it could be a LOT worse.

    • Kip – you are so right. Thank you. I have been thinking a lot about how lucky we are and I do appreciate everything. I am sorry for whinging on, sometimes it is best to blurt it out here than to actual people. I forget that actual people read what I write. Onwards with a more positive attitude x

  2. I don’t usually comment, but as I switched off my heated airer this morning I thought of you and this post. We don’t have a tumble drier either but Lakeland do brilliant heated airers and one of those has revolutionised my life! A load of washing dries overnight, doesn’t smell damp and doesn’t take up much more space than a normal airer. I understand they’re pretty economical to run as well. Well worth the money… x

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