Renovation Revelations

I wish I had known

I wish I had been better prepared

For the destruction and devastation

Of renovating our home

I wish I had known

The intense, immense emotions

I would feel

As the walls came tumbling down

I wish I had known

How much the disruption

Would affect our family

Our relationships with one another

Our ability to cope

With day to day life

I wish I had known

How not living at home

Would hurt us

Upset us

Undo our routines

I have been foolish

Naive

And stupid

I should have known

And now it is begun

It cannot be undone

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We can only go on

Can only hold on

And hope

We survive the bumpy ride

Without too many injuries

Sustained along the way

Hope that it will be worth it

And that any damages incurred

Can be repaired

Hope that we make it

To the light at the end of the tunnel

Hope that it will be worth it

Hope that we can make it

Together

Without hurting each other

Through fear

Unknowing

Anxiety

Guilt

Doubt

And all the emotions in between

I wish I had known

I wish I had been better prepared

For the destruction and devastation

Of renovating our home

I wish I had known

The intense, immense emotions

I would feel

As the walls came tumbling down

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6 thoughts on “Renovation Revelations

  1. You sum up so well the emotion of not having a settled home for families. Please hold on to the fact it is a very temporary situation. Many families would be grateful for the conditions of your temporary home. I feel the same emotion I feel if I watch DIY SOS as when I read your blog at the moment. Immense excitement for a family that so deserve their new home and so need it for their journey and will do good and apprichate it because of all they have been though.. But then a sad despair for the so many in such a worse situation than the families ‘before’ home. My families who can’t do their homework because there is no room, who struggle to be school ready in the morning because there is only one room to sleep in. Who have no light at their tunnel. I wish you the best in your journey as I do with all my dear families.
    X

    • Thank you for this comment. You are right in so many ways we are so fortunate and much of our situation is temporary. And this journey makes me think also of what life must be like for families permanently without a home and not knowing if or when their lives may change. x x x x The rollercoaster involves personal feelings and also helps to put wider situations into perspective x

  2. This is always the worst bit in any build, probably made harder as you have memories there too. Trust me all the hard work, cost, tears, worry, anger and dust will be worth it in the end. It will be hard, it will be messy, and it is hard to envisage the final result when everything is so up in the air. My parents had an extension when I was a teen, and it caused a lot of tension but now they wouldn’t be without their new extra space. I expect the kids are probably finding it all a bit weird and strange but will settle soon 🙂 xx

    • Thank you x It is made worse with the guilt I think of taking down Tilda’s house. It will be a different place once it is rebuilt. I am trying to keep her memory alive within little parts of the new bits. And her garden will be a little larger when it is all done x

  3. It probably doesn’t feel like right now but it will all be worth it in the end. It will always be Tilda’s house even if it is tore down and rebuilt a 100 times – her memory will be always be there she will always belong with you. Stay strong lovely you will get there in end xx

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