Thursday
I think the way to cope
With not being at home
Is to be out
The last two days
We went out
To places we know
Places we enjoy
Places we feel safe
The Rare Breeds Centre, near Ashford in Kent
and
Both farms full of animals, tractors
Indoor and outdoor play
Good coffee and exceedingly good cake!
We have annual passes now for both farms
So together with Leeds Castle
These will be our safe havens
We are also going to make more
Of our National Trust membership
It is summer
We are home educating
We should make the most of being able
To get out and about
Also on sunny days
We are going to go home
And play in the garden
So that myself and the children
Remain connected with the renovation process
And with our home
We are 4 days into the build now
And things are happening fast
There is a digger in our playroom
Huge holes in the floors and the ceilings and the walls
Props and poles
Are holding up our house
As we wait for the steels to be put in
It is crazy seeing your house being taken apart
Piece by piece
By people that you do not know
You are trusting them with everything
Your house, your home
Your future
Everything
We have come away today
Leaving our house with a humungous hole at it’s heart
We are hoping it will all be still standing
When the team return in the morning
I still think that David and I are shocked
David especially, as he is in the thick of it
By the enormity of the levels of destruction of our home
That may sound silly
Perhaps we should have known
But our house is pretty much completely destroyed on the inside
Torn down to be built back up again
Assuming we do not run out of money before it is done!
Friday
It is Friday
The end of the working week
The end of the first week of our renovation
It is time to take a break and reflect
On our big build
Today was a slower day
But it ended with the first steel in place
And a 5000 litre rainwater harvesting tank in the garden
David managed to sleep through til 5.30am today
Instead of waking at 3.30am
But then worked his longest day yet
Project managing at the site
The site
Our home
And meeting with electricians
Our house is more holey than ever
The dust is inches thick
On the outside of the house
Let alone the inside
We have had to pack up everything
And make decisions about things
That had been safely stored away
Since Tilda died
The planning notes from the funeral directors
It has annoyed us for more than 3 years
Staring out at us from a shelf in the kitchen
With her name spelled wrong
But it never felt right to throw it away
So now we have ceremoniously burned it instead
The lights from Tilda’s first Christmas star
Those David rightfully decided to keep
As the project unfolds
So too does our history
Wrapped in every fibre of this house
Is our time within it
The souvenirs of our times
Our family momentos
Those treasured and those tucked away
All filled with memory and love
Big builds are stressful
Also emotional in ways you do not think about
Until it is begun
And once it is started
There is no going back
But now we breathe
Reflect
Recharge
Before we begin again on Tuesday
Bringing down the walls
Your doing so well, I follow your blog in such admiration for you Jennie. It will be fabulous when it is finished Xxxx
So much of everything tied up in our homes, not just the things inside, but the fabric itself.