At a quick glance the rented house looks lovely
When you take a closer look
Then you see
It is depressingly badly painted
Things don’t quite fit together as they should
There is an island in the kitchen
But you cannot use it
The stools provided are far too high
If you stand to eat the island is far too low
No one has had much sleep
The house is light and loud
The beds are creaky and uncomfortable
It is only 9 o’clock in the morning
And already all I want to do is cry
Today is a nice sunny day
So soon we will escape
But what on earth are we to do when it rains?
Our old house is now unsafe to enter
We have nowhere that feels like home
And no idea when we might have something safe enough to return to
It is going to be at least two months
But realistically much much more
I am seriously considering risking the heat of the summer
And escaping to Spain to live with my Mum
Though I am not sure we would be welcome indefinitely
I know we are lucky in so many ways
But it is hard to see through the fog sometimes
It is hard to see through the fog
Today I am caught up in a dark dark mood
Exacerbated by tired children
I have just taken them to explore the park
In our new, temporary, village
Esther played happily
The other two just moaned and whinged and complained
It was so awful we have had to come home
I think I was a bit premature yesterday
In thinking the upheaval would not affect our children
If we are struggling
Of course it follows that they will too
I wish I knew how to make it better for them
Instead of being the idiot I keep accusing William of being
It is only day 2 of many many days
I have to clear this fog of frustration, fear and worry
There is no going back now
Our house is not safe for living in
There is no going back now
Only onwards
Only on
One thing that is really bothering me
Is having no Internet
Social media is how I communicate with my family and friends
Here I have no access to them
No Internet
No email
I cannot see my Google calendar
Cannot check the weather
Cannot see what is on
To plan where we might go
And I cannot write my blog
My blog which is my therapy
My only vice and outlet
With no Internet we have no TV
No You Tube
No CBeebies
No Reading Eggs or Maths Seeds
Which play an important role
In our home school
Day 2 and I am already wishing
That we owned many more DVDs than we do!
….
Just after 11am
After a fruit feast
Watching The Lion Guard
I piled everyone in the car
And we drove to the next village
To buy hot sausage rolls
And Chelsea buns
For ourselves, Daddy and the builders
Carrying the load back to the car
With three small children
Was quite an unenviable task
But I did it
The workers were very grateful
The sun was shining
And we all had a much more peaceful
Calm afternoon
Of course we did
We were home
The building work is moving on at a pace
They started taking down the first of the walls today
And David felled Matilda’s tree
Tomorrow we have a specialist grounds man arriving
He is going to be digging the foundations for our extension
The holes needed to be filled with cement to support our chimneys
Once the walls are down
And the holes in the ground for our
Rain water harvesting tank
So much is happening so quickly
No wonder we are all out of sync
Today was not a good parenting day for me
Tomorrow I must try harder to be more understanding
Poor old William does not cope well with change
And Bea is struggling to get through the days without her num-num
But we all made it through the day
Perhaps with a few too many shouts
And foot stamps
But we made it through the day
I think a big building project like this
Can be compared to an exciting business event
Or a spell of time away
Where one partner is able to get stuck in
Enjoy the physicality of the work
Soak up the atmosphere of the build
Enjoy the company of the workers
While the other is left
Trying to live their usual life
In a totally unusual
Unfamiliar way
It is always harder for the ones left behind
No wonder we are all exhausted
Anxious and uncertain
And I am not really sure
That the enormity of what we are doing
Has hit home yet
(Pun totally intended!)
We are still standing
Even smiling some of the time!
And today I remembered a happy accident
By complete coincidence
Our builders
Are MM Construction
Matilda Mae is watching over all that we, and they, do
I do believe in signs
Do you?
Hooray for you and for taking on this huge change!
Perhaps you could look at your library for structured programs/activities for William, Esther, and even you and Bea. With your home under reconstruction and living in temporary quarters, it sounds like you’re all craving a routine. Explore what your town has to offer and take advantage of it. This may also help you wean Bea.
I admire your courage, Jennie. I’ve lived through a total house reconstruction and while we remained in place during the reno, I did not have three young children. You’ll do this and be an outstanding example for your little ones. William will learn how to cope with change from you. Blessings!
You’re certainly making progress on your home! I know it can certainly be an enormous challenge to tackle a project so big, but your results will soon show that all your hard work was worth it! Keep it up!
made a big change in your home, but it’s good to always be changing to not get sick and do not accommodate too, renewal always brings good thing.