The number nine is Tilda’s number
Reflected now in Beatrice’s name
Nine
Matilda Mae was in the womb for exactly nine months
She was alive for nine months to the day that she died
Nine months after her death
I fell pregnant with our Rainbow Baby
The beautiful Baby Bea
Nine months after that our Rainbow Bea was born
Nine months after that
Here at Coombe Mill farm
Just days after Tilda’s third birthday
Baby Bea turned 9 months
She was very very poorly
I thought our links to nines were over
But then yesterday
Nine months away from the anniversary of Tilda’s death
My monthly cycle returned
With no warning or expectation
My cycles have started again
And if we were to conceive a baby this month
And they were born nine months from now
They would be born on or around
Matilda Mae’s anniversary
I am fairly certain we will not conceive
We are not really sure if or when we are even going to try
But the possibility
Is now at the forefront of my mind
Those nines!
Tilda’s numbers
Tilda’s nines
I am sure people will think I am bonkers
But for me the nines are signs
Signs from our star of the sea
Signs from our star in the sky
The nines are signs
I am certain from our beautiful Matilda Mae
So beautiful. I totally believe in signs, they are there for us to see. To reassure us, to give us hope, to make us remember but to also look to the future xx
aw lovely. Havent checked in for a while but lovely to hear your reflections. bless you