#Liveitforgeorgie and Matilda Mae

My heart is breaking tonight

On the eve of the anniversary

Of gorgeous boy Georgie’s passing

On the eve of the day

That Bea will turn 11 months old

Bea walked today

Just a few steps

I was so excited and proud

Our beautiful baby will soon be a toddler

But I also shook with anger and sorrow

For Baby Tilda

Who never walked

Who never reached 11 months

My heart broke for Tilda

And for Georgie

Tonight as I sang Bea to sleep

I realised that even though it is July

I always sing Silent Night

The song I sang to Tilda every night

From the start of Advent 2012

Until February 2nd 2013

The night that she died

Now

When Bea is tired but cannot fall asleep

This is what I sing

And it never fails to soothe her

She always calms and falls asleep in my arms

Tomorrow Bea will be 11 months old

And she has slept every night of her life in my arms

I am not sure I will ever be able to put her down

I know I will always regret

Ever laying Tilda down to sleep

If she had always been in my arms

She might just be here now

But today is not a time for sadness

It is not a time for sorrow or regret

Today was a day to #liveitforgeorgie

And through the courage of his Mummy

We did

For Georgie and our own Matilda Mae

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Dear Georgie and Tilda

This is what we did today

In honour of both of you

The morning started with Esther joining me in bed

David was up with Bea and William was still sleeping

Me and my biggest girl snuggled up together

And together we shared a couple of chapters

From My Naughty Little Sister

After breakfast

Daddy took Bea out in the buggy for her morning sleep

Esther, William and I created

The Lion King 2 small world

In a tuff spot and a gardening tray

lion king 2  tuff spot

We played together in the shade of Tilda’s apple tree

After an early lunch

We played in the garden

All together

Mummy, Daddy, Esther, William and Bea

We made rainbows on the lawn with the sprinkler

rainbow fun

We danced in the rainbow

We slid through the rainbow

We chased rainbows

We splashed and dashed

We jumped and skipped and played

We had a wonderful summers afternoon

Of water play

family fun

And the rainbows were for Tilda

The rainbows were for Georgie

Hugo

Harry

Freddie

Hattie and Flic

Abigail

Matilda

Lily

Bea

The rainbows were for all the babies we know in the sky

Sadly far too many to list here now

Today was for you

Loving each other

Laughing together

Just being together

Simple summer, family fun

water table fun

I want to do it all again tomorrow

God bless you babies in the sky

May you chase the rainbows and dance with the stars

We love you and miss you for always

On this day and every day

For all days

bubbles for matilda mae

We do x

4 thoughts on “#Liveitforgeorgie and Matilda Mae

  1. Lovely post. Today we celebrated our rainbow baby’s 1st bday with all our lovely family and friends had a great day but for some reason has made me miss my baby girl I never got to bring home even more than normal. Finding it hard marking all the milestones I missed out on with her! Think I needed to read this today thank you xx

  2. It sounds like you had a wonderful day of love and laughter and I can’t think of a better way of remembering all the babies that are no longer with us. I think the image of them ‘chasing the rainbows and dancing with the stars’ is just beautiful; whenever I see a rainbow or the stars at night I think of the babies that I hold in my own heart.

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