Two sleeps ago we drove to Coombe Mill
The day before we left David found one of the tyres on our car
Flat
Worried we would be unable to make our very special journey
He took the twins to Qwik Fit
Two new tyres later
We felt able to pack the car ready for the off
We went to sleep just after midnight
On the day we were due to leave
As dawn broke
And we readied to leave
We could not believe that one of our rear tyres was flat again
We could not bear not to go
We travelled to our nearest garage
Filled the tyre with air
And began our journey to the sea
On our way to the farm
We visited Longleat
As we have always done
Since the day we took Tilda’s ashes on safari in 2013
After Longleat instead of staying somewhere over night
We travelled on to Coombe Mill
Esther and William were very tired
And Bea does not travel well at the very best of times
I thought our evening drive to the farm
Was going to be horrid
But I think our guardian angel
Had other plans and ideas
Esther and William settled with a DVD in the car
And Bea soon fell asleep to lullabies
Including Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
David was focused on the driving
And me …
I got lost in the sky
A sky filled with angels
As the landscape became familiar
As we travelled the roads we now know so well
My attention was given to the skies
The early evening Cornish sky
Brightest blue
With dense fluffy clouds
White as the beard of an old fisherman
It was a sky painted by a child
Of a day filled with memory
The happiest of memory
It was a sky filled with angels
Children of the stars
A sky full of angels
And on this night
My little angel
My star of the sea
I am certain gave me a glimpse of her world
Her world beyond the clouds
Her world up in the sky
Her world on any ordinary
That I just cannot see
Cannot begin to imagine
Though I fiercely believe
As we headed into Cornwall
The rain thundered down
From nowhere
Falling from the bluest sky
Through cotton wool clouds
Laced with golden sunshine
The heavens opened
And the rain fell
The thick clouds glistened
With silver and gold
The perfect weather for a rainbow
It was as though Tilda was welcoming us
And telling us it was okay
That bringing Bea
Having Bea was okay
The green grass in the surrounding fields
Was the brightest I had ever seen
The yellow gorse on the moors
As bright as though it were drops of sunshine
Raining down to the ground
The clouds formed images of angels
Sunbeams broke through like ladders to the sky
Urging me to climb
Come Mummy, come and climb
The clouds were illuminated
Crowned with sunlight
Holes in the clouds
Dazzled my eyes
It felt as though I could see through them
The cloudland borders
To a secret world of hope and beauty beyond
I felt like I was somewhere beautiful
Somewhere incredible
Somewhere magical
And yet so familiar
So normal
So comforting
Though the clouds were in fact blankets
Wrapping themselves around me
Keeping me warm and safe from harm
Like arms wrapped round
Love enveloping me
It felt like coming home
And though my heart was racing
And my spirit soared
The saltwater tears trickled
Then fell
As suddenly as the torrential rain stopped
With no warning whatever
My tears fell
Because I could feel her
I could feel my baby daughter close
And it felt wonderful
Overwhelming
Amazing
We were coming together
In her very special place
Where she and we found peace
As Tilda’s ashes sailed down the river
Across the sea to the sky
A sky that is just the very beginning
Of what is still to come
Of a life we can know nothing of
Until we are part of it
Until we are there
Until we are together again
In the sky
Her sky
Beyond the sky
The beautiful rainbow sky
A sky filled with angels
A sky full of angels
This was so lovely to read, I hope you have a lovely time away, already sounds as if you are feeling very close to her there. I know it will be an emotional time but I hope you all have fun too xx
So beautiful and despite the forecast it was indeed a welcoming sky. So lovely to have you all back on the farm, our farm, your farm xx
Aww Jennie this is beautiful.
This is so beautiful, i hope that you all have a wonderful time x
You sound at peace somehow Jennie. I’m so glad she found you in the skies. xx
Beautiful.
I read with a lump in my throat, she was able to find you & let you know she is near. Have a wonderful holiday xx
Such a beautiful, powerful & moving post Jennie xxx
Aww this has really touched me… I hope you all enjoy the rest of your holiday x
Beautiful, I think was most definitely sending you a sign. My grandad leaves me white feathers when I need reassurance.