I think everyone knows by now
We are off to Coombe Mill
I discovered Coombe Mill online
Through the blogging community I think?
Back in 2012
On Christmas Day 2012 I booked a holiday
We chose Coombe Mill as the place to spend our daughter’s first birthday
Our friends visited Coombe Mill with their little one
They had an amazing time and wonderful weather
I knew it was the place I wanted to be
When Matilda Mae turned one
I imagined her toddling around the farm
With her cheeky smile
And a floppy pink sun hat
I imagined her stroking the lambs
With her chubby little hands
I could picture her
Picking daisies from the grass
Riding on the tractor
Crawling on the sand
And splashing in the sea
It was going to be a magical family holiday
I had no idea that Christmas Day
As we paid our deposit online
That our beautiful Baby Tilda
Would never see the farm we chose for her
She would not live to see her first birthday
Instead we would carry her ashes there
In a paper bag
In a wooden boat
And it would be from there
We would sail her ashes
Down the river
Across the sea
To the sky
I cannot remember how after Tilda died
We made the decision to still go to Coombe Mill
But I am so glad that we did
We had always planned to send Tilda’s ashes out to sea
We did not choose the exact place until after being at the farm a few days
We were looking at different places in Cornwall
And nowhere seemed right
I know now that was because we had already found it
It was always meant to be
I have always said that I felt Tilda knew she was not here to stay
I am certain our Coombe Mill holiday was always booked
Unknowingly
As a resting place for Tilda’s body
A place with children and family at it’s heart
A place we can return to year on year
A place we can share with family and friends
A place we will always feel her close
We chose Coombe Mill for Matilda Mae
Matilda Mae chose Coombe Mill for us
It will always feature in our calendar
It will always hold a very special place in our hearts
And in just 3 sleeps we will be back there again
To her farm, our farm
Her river
To one of the prettiest, most magical places I have ever been
This year we will remember our beautiful daughter
This year we will celebrate her third birthday in the sky
And mark the second anniversary of the night her ashes set sail
For the saddest of occasions
We return once again to our happy place
We return once again to Coombe Mill
I hope that one day you will visit there too
I know that you will love it just as much as we do
Such a beautiful post which has brought me to tears….
Sending love and hugs and thinking of you x
We went for the first time the week leading up to Easter and I agree, there is something magical about the place. The change in my son when we were there was emotional for me and wonderful to see, he came alive, he had confidence to try new things. Sending a hug and hope you all have a peaceful break x
Bittersweet memories here for you but also a place to be at peace, to relax and to enjoy being with your family as a complete unit. I hope this will be another memorable stay, one to watch your children develop and blossom. I can’t wait to see you all and meet Baby Bea for the 1st time.
Coombe Mill is magical and a special place for us too but for different reasons. I could feel Matilda Mae in Coombe Mill, especially when the stars came out at night. I am looking forward to return there in September. I hope you enjoy your holiday xxx
Such a lovely post although it has almost made me cry. I hope that you all have a lovely time away in your happy place xx