I Am Doing What I Can

Sometimes life does not work out the way you planned

The way you hoped or dreamed

Sometimes you cannot do all you thought you might do

There are only so many hours in a day

So many minutes in each of those hours

Before Bea was born I had such plans for how things were going to be

Esther and William off to school

Me at home with just one baby

Easy!

A doddle!

All the time in the world for sorting the house

Writing blog post after blog post

But that is not how things have been

Or how things continue to be

You will notice there are a lot of reviews on my blog at the moment

I am trying really hard to clear a backlog

Some posts owed are over a year old

But I am working on them

Getting through them

Slowly

Steadily

Steadfastly

It is not that I am not trying

It is not that I am avoiding them

It is not that I have forgotten

But I will not let my baby scream while I get stuff done

I will not write when my children want me to play

I will not let my family fall apart around me because I owe a company a review

I will not risk my health to promote a product

I have said this before but here I am again

My family come first

My children come first

And yes I would have a lot more time for me if Bea slept in a cot

But if your baby had died in one would you?

I am not ready yet to put my Rainbow down

I am doing what I can

And for now that has to be enough

Did I take on too much?

Probably

Have I been irresponsible?

Possibly

Were my expectations of myself naive?

Definitely

I am a busy mummy of three

With a baby in the sky

I am doing what I can

And for now that has to be enough

That has to be enough

raising rainbow big

5 thoughts on “I Am Doing What I Can

  1. Hello lovely. You absolutely have to put your family first, and anyone who is not respectful of that is not worth your time! I think you’re doing a wonderful job of raising your beautiful rainbow baby, nurturing your gorgeous twins and honouring Matilda Mae in all that you do. You and your family are important. Pardon the expression, but quite frankly sod the reviews! Anyone who is waiting has waited this long, I think they’ll manage to wait a little longer. The work you have done and continue to do for companies is more valuable than you will ever know, even before you write your posts. I can vouch for that.
    Here for you always, Ami x

  2. I feel so sad that you have to write this post. You are doing an amazing job with your children and that is all that matters. People must remember being a mother & wife will always come first compared to a blog post. We all support you xx

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