Ours is not a happy house at the moment
I am not sure it really has been since Baby Tilda died
I know that I struggle every day
Now it is increasingly obvious that David is also struggling
Esther and William too
There is never a fun carefree atmosphere
And if there is ever anything close to it
There seem to be consequences
For all of us
Someone said to me recently
That I need to put on my own oxygen mask
Before I try to help others
Even my own children
And I am starting to realise they are right
I am so unhappy with who I am
And what I do
That I am not able to make things better for others
I think honestly I am probably making things worse
So things are going to be changing
As I try to put my house in order
And set my priorities straight
Starting with myself
And locating that oxygen mask
So I can put it on
You will find that oxygen mask, I know it. Forget everything else, just nurture yourself and take time fr you and your family. All the rest is puff and wind. H x
thank you x