Welly Walk One Year On

Today has been a rainy and windy day

Such a contrast from the sunshine of yesterday

But I am glad for the rain today

I am glad for the rain and the puddles

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As I sit and watch tears fall from Heaven

My own river silently flows

Tears of love and loss

For Matilda Mae

One year ago was such a special day

One that will be etched in my heart forever

The day we walked

In our wellies

For baby Matilda Mae

It was a glorious family day

Marking 9 months in the womb, 9 months alive and 9 months dead

And though I did not know it then

It was the first day of another 9 months

The first day of 39 weeks and five days

That I would be pregnant with Bea

The dates, those numbers

They surely can not be chance

When Bea turns 9 months we will be at Coombe Mill

Just days after Tilda’s third birthday

I am certain that it has been made so

Somehow

So that Tilda will be close

So we might feel her close

On a night we all are dreading

So much has happened in a year

Yet it feels like no time at all

21 months without our baby girl

How can that possibly be?

One year since we walked in our wellies

One year since we followed her star

We have not moved on from that moment

And yet we have come so far

Time just marches on

Taking everyone and everything standing in its path

Baby Tilda is being left farther and further behind

But not by me

Never by me

I will love her and miss her this much until the day that I die

Until I see my baby again in Heaven

When we will play together

Beyond the rainbow

Among the stars

TILDA AND ME

I love you and miss you Matilda Mae

And will do for all of my days x

3 thoughts on “Welly Walk One Year On

  1. Patterns, meaning. Always there is meaning under this chaos. I can sense the promise in your words. The promise to remember, always. It might seem like the world moves on, when time moves on, but there are always those who remember. Who see a star and think , as you do, of Tilda.

  2. Sending so much love, there is meaning in all those patterns and one day you will be together again, until then we are all here holding your hand and remembering your beautiful little Matilda Mae xx

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