Peace in the Stars

There is nothing to be done tonight

A sudden and unexpected death has happened again

Ripping the heart out of a family

Stealing a beautiful soul

As I write this my heart is heavy

For a father who has lost a daughter

A husband who has lost a wife

And two tiny babies who will never know their mummy

The world makes no sense to me

None at all

I am struggling not to just cry

For a family I do not know

But whose loss I have some understanding of

Loss of life

Loss of potential

Loss of a future

Loss of love

No parent should have to mourn their child

No children should never know their mummy

They will love her and cherish her for always

But right now there is darkness and pain

Such dense darkness

Such heart piercing pain

Uncontrollable tears

For all they knew

And all they had yet to discover and enjoy

They will miss her every day

In ways none of us can begin to imagine

Each in their own individual way

They will grieve for her every day

For the rest of their lives

Together, independently, individually

They will mourn for her

And what she was to them

What she is and forever will be

For them

And she will forever be in all they do

Carried in their hearts

But it is not the same

It is not enough

It can never ever be the same or be enough

And every time some other

Loses one of their significant others

Their pain will be excruciating and raw all over again

Every loss will feel like theirs

Loss of love

Loss of a future

Loss of potential

Loss of life

Tonight my heart breaks all over again

For the family of Peaches Geldof

And for our baby daughter Matilda Mae

May you both be at the peace in the stars

May all our angels find peace in the stars

star of light

“Tears shed for another person are not a sign of weakness. They are a sign of a pure heart.”
― José N. Harris, MI VIDA: A Story of Faith, Hope and Love

14 thoughts on “Peace in the Stars

  1. I had no clue who this post was about until i saw you wrote “Peaches Geldof” – I’m in actual shock. I followed her on twitter and saw a tweet from her just yesterday – a photo of her and her late Mummy when she was a child. To find out she has died at the age of 25 is just shocking. God love those two little boys of hers 🙁 xx

  2. Beautifully written. I had tears in my eyes reading the news of her death, her poor family, those poor young boys. And for the rest of family family too, after the death of their wife/mother.

    xxx

  3. So sad. The world makes no sense at all. I wish you didn’t know their pain so well. May she rest in perfect peace x

  4. Oh my gosh this is so, so sad 🙁 I just don’t know what I would do if anything happened to my mummy. God bless mummies everywhere, and children and babies too, here and in heaven 🙁 xx

  5. Such a vibrant full of life articulate girl. Doesn’t make sense at all. My recent memory of her is the video with Katie Hopkins where everyone said she “owned” her. That day so many gave kudos to her. It was the day that I found out for the first time that she has a lot of similar parenting beliefs to me. Normally I am quite distant to celebs, but I felt a real connection to her when that was aired and watched it several times. What came across is how being a Mum woke something up in her. She came across as SO VERY alive. So my heart wrenched today when I heard the news. I don’t know how her husband and father are so brave to already have given statements, but we live in a social media world where news goes round the world in minutes. Doesn’t give the family chance to catch their breath. My love and thoughts are with them all tonight, and with Peaches, wherever her soul may be. Truly heartbreaking and so very brave of you to write about it. You are always so eloquent. Much love to you too honey.
    Liska x

  6. I don’t understand this world. It doesn’t make sense to me. However, at times like these, it just reinforces how much we have to live in the moment and treasure every day. You never know when your time to leave will come. So sad.

  7. Such a sad, sad situation. I followed Peaches on Instagram and she constantly posted videos and photos of her precious children. They were her world and yes, they will miss her terribly.
    x x

  8. It is very sad about Peaches, I was on twitter and saw someone tweet that Peaches had passed away! I was in shock, I watched the news all evening.. It’s so very sad 🙁 Her children are constantly in my thoughts as is the rest of her family. xxx

  9. Peaches’ death sits heavily in my heart. I found myself crying today after putting my baby girl down for a nap after a feed. I know Peaches was a breastfeeding mum too and I can’t bear to think of those babies in distress because she isn’t there. Thank you for this post.

  10. As I started reading this I thought it was about a husband and twins who recently lost their mother at birth after refusing a blood transfusion due to her religion. I recently lost my mum, its very hard. I hope her boys have lots of memories to help keep her alive. I hope this hope for everyone who has lost someone.

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