Mothers’ Day is looming
This weekend it will be here
For many a day of joy and celebration
A day many dread and fear

I am a mother myself
I have a mother of my own
I have an amazing mother in law
But on Sunday I will hide at home

A day when all the little children
Give presents, make pictures and cards
Makes it clear for all to see
One child is missing from my arms

I know it will be handled sensitively
By my husband who knows all too well
How hard a day like Sunday can be
He is someone I don’t need to tell

How my heart will be breaking
My smiles will be laced with tears
As we miss our baby in the sky
And survive this pregnancy filled with fears

I know I’m not the only one
Who will find Mothering Sunday hard
I will not be able to say Happy Mothers’ Day
I have not sent any card

And maybe you think that is selfish
I have lots to thank people for
But it is just too difficult to say out loud
I don’t want to hurt anymore

I know that I am a mother
I am grateful everyday
For the children who love me very much
Those here and those who couldn’t stay

I know that I am a mother
I feel it in my heart
Mother love and fear and doubt and guilt
That make me so happy and tear me apart

Sunday I will be with all my children
We will include Baby Tilda in our day
And I will think of all the babies in the sky
All the babies that did not stay

I will think of those whose mothers
Are too far away or who do not care
I will think of all the children
Wishing their mothers could be there

I will think of those whose mothers
Are already flying high
We will think of all mummies and all children
As we blow bubble kisses to the sky

I am proud to be a mother
I am filled with love for all three
Twins with us here, Tilda in the sky
And Rainbow Baby soon to be
Hopefully

So wherever you are this Sunday
Whatever you may do
We will be sparing you a thought
And blowing our bubbles for you

Mothers’ Day is looming
This weekend it will be here
For many a day of joy and celebration
A day many dread and fear

I am a mother myself
I have a mother of my own
I have an amazing mother in law
But on Sunday I will hide at home

I will dream of all the Mothers’ Days
I just assumed there would be
With my family getting bigger
Watching them grow around me

I will think of all the Mothers’ days
That I truly believed there’d be
Special days of celebration
Surrounded by family

I will be grateful for what we have
I will be thankful Esther and William are fine
But I will cry for Baby Tilda
Because we thought we’d have more time

We thought we’d have more time