Welcome to Matilda Mae Remembers

It has been 13 months now since Matilda Mae, Baby Tilda, died.

She was 9 months old and died suddenly and unexpectedly in her sleep.

Next week will be one year since we held her goodbye.

Here in this church.

In the last year I have learned many many things

About myself, other people

About loss and grief

I have learned that there is no going back

And it is hard moving forward

After a baby has died

Nothing can ever go back as it was before

Nothing will ever be normal again

We must find a new normal

A new way to live our lives

A way unimaginable without our baby in our arms

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One of the things that has touched me most

In a year without Matilda Mae

A year in which we also lost another baby

Through miscarriage

Is that baby loss is not talked about enough

I write a blog

I write very openly about life without Matilda Mae

I wrote very openly about my miscarriage

And what I have found is that I am a voice

For so many people who have been through

What David and I have been through

And have not found the words to say

It is just not something people talk about

But it should be

A person is a person no matter how small

A mother loves a baby from the moment they know they have been conceived

Every single baby matters

And deserves to be talked about

Deserves to be remembered

And to have their name shouted out loud

In the past year the thing I have learned

That has affected me the most

Is that I am not the first mother to have walked this path

And sadly, so so sadly, I will not be the last

And so we raise money and we raise awareness

We come together and we remember

We live our lives to make our babies proud

Because what else is there to do?

Today we come together

And we remember

We remember Baby Tilda

We remember Matilda

We remember Harrison

And Tommy

And Hattie and Flic

We remember all those babies lost too soon to be named

Too soon to be known

We come together to remember all our babies in the sky

All angels in the sky

We come together and we remember them.

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An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby’s birth,
Then whispered as she closed the book,
“Too beautiful for Earth”
-Unknown

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Matilda Mae Remembers is a service open to all.

We will come together to remember and honour all babies in the sky.

You can find all the information you need here.

12 thoughts on “Welcome to Matilda Mae Remembers

  1. I think it is beautiful and to the point. I am sure it will be a lovy ceremony, I continue to wish that I could be with you at these times x

  2. I can not read this without tears streaming down my face & I don’t know you. I can only imagine the pain & heartache you have/ continue to endue and thank you for sharing your story. By sharing your story you are that voice to so many, I hope it brings them & you a little comfort. You also impact the lives of those who have not lost by making them appreciate what they have. You continue to inspire me Jennie.

  3. It’s perfect Jennie. I had a miscarriage at Christmas and what you said is so right – a mother loves her baby from the moment she has learned she conceived. You have made Matilda Mae so proud xx

  4. That is beautiful. You’ve been doing an amazing job raising awareness of babies that leave us too soon. It’s helped me process my miscarriage and feel fine about still being sad even though I’ve since been blessed x

  5. Thank you for bravely sharing your voice Jennie, I was starting to feel silly or a bit of a fraud for being upset about our early miscarriage but you’ve helped me to see that every loss is painful and deserves to be recognised x

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