Today has been a difficult day
Saying goodbye
To things that have played such an important part in our life
That we cannot bear to use again
Baby Tilda’s moses basket
Baby Tilda’s beautiful Graco Evo pram
Esther and William’s toddler rockers
Two of our three high chairs
A triple buggy we never had chance to use
So many beautiful blankets
Sleeping bags and swaddling cloths
So many boxes and bags full of clothes
Toys much loved and never used
We said goodbye to our past
But also to a future
A future that can never be
Now our baby is no longer here
Sorting through these many things
Such a bittersweet thing to do
So many happy memories
Such heartache for all that should still be
For a future we will never share
Such a lot of wasted potential
Our beautiful Baby Tilda
When Tilda died I threw many of her things into boxes
Thinking I would not want to keep them
But today as I sorted through
There were many things I had overlooked
That I have now decided to keep
I have a beautiful box of her favourite clothes
That I am going to have made into a blanket
I have kept her starry pram blanket
And there are some clothes that I have kept
In case a rainbow baby ever comes our way
And there are still things in boxes yet to find
The things that we no longer need
The things we cannot bear to keep
Will be delivered to our local Sure Start centre tomorrow
And from there they will be distributed to local families in need
I hope that Matilda Mae will smile down on them
And keep their little ones safe
I hope that Matilda Mae approves of what we are doing
Spreading her legacy a little bit more
Helping families who really need our help
We are not forgetting you Matilda Mae
We cannot, shall not, will not, ever forget
We will remember you
Honour you
And love you
For all of our days x
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. Corinthians 4:18
This must have been such a hard day for you jennie, well done for even trying to go thru Matilda’s things let alone getting thru it. Lots of love xxx
Dearest Jennie,
I am sat here crying thinking of what a difficult, heartbreaking thing to do – to go through all Matilda’s things and say goodbye once more. You have such courage and kindness in one to be brave enough to go through all the pain again and to then have the generosity to give them to families in news. Matilda Mae is looking down on the mummy with love in her heart and pride in her eyes. It does not make sense why she was taken from you – such a cruel, unfair world we live in. I am so sorry x
Oh Jennie this must have been so hard for you to do and brought so many memories flooding back, I know only too well getting any old baby clothes down of the boys how many moments you can remember from one outfit or item.
Well done you for being able to go through her things and passing them on to people in need of them I am sure she will be looking over all the new owners xx
This must have been heartbreaking all over again. You are such a kind, thoughtful mother and person. Nobody will ever forget your beautiful daughter. xx
Jennie, firstly let me say I love the new look blog. Beautiful.
Secondly, this photo made me smile – you’ll know why.
And thirdly, such a dreadfully hard day (as every day is now for you). You are always in my thoughts each day, especially on a Saturday and the 2nd, but today I’ve been thinking of you even more. You are braver than you think and so selfless. Sending you love xx
So hard, so painful and so very brave… Jennie, I can’t imagine how difficult today has been for you. Tilda is blessing others with her beautiful things even now. A blanket is a wonderful idea, a precious keepsake and something you can wrap yourself up in… Sending so much love, as always.xxx
Huge hugs. You are so selfless thinking of others in needs. No one will forget Tilda xxx
Jennie I’ve been catching up on your posts and read this one last. I can’t imagine how difficult this weekend must have been for you. What a courageous and wonderful thing to do to pass on Matilda’s beautiful things to people in need. P.S. Absolutely love the new blog design x
Once again your beautiful words bring me to tears…. Love. xxx