Everywhere is where you are
Every breath
Every breeze
Every memory
Every idea
Everywhere is where you are to me
The third car seat that is not there
The travel cot in the other room
The highchair at the table end
My empty aching arms
The third sibling
The seventh cousin
The invisible grandchild
The name that is never spoken
Crawling in the lounges
Sitting by the stairs
Walking round the corridors
Holding on to hands
Every buggy, every swing
Trike and toddle bike
Every snack, every crust
Every brand new thing
When anyone is blinking
When someone tips their head
When people are doing clapping
When we only put two to bed
Splashing in the swimming pool
Rolling on the grass
Giggling at the baby seals
The stars in Granddad’s birthday card
The space in every photograph
The drawn out seconds of every minute
The whispers in the darkness
The warmth of the rising sun
The melody in the music
The lyrics to every song
The stars in every story sky
The twinkling ripples on the sea
The space in the suitcase
The lack of baby toys
The time in the evenings
The luxury morning lay in
The lack of motivation
The not wanting to plan tomorrow
The secret in my silence
The stone weight in my heart
Every single word I type
Every single thought I think
Every laugh from every child
Every 9 month old baby I see
As your brother eloquently said
You are in the water and the sky
Every bubble that we blow
Every starry sky we see
Baby Tilda you are everywhere
You are in everything
Yet knowing that is not enough
To stop the desperate longing
Everywhere is where you are
Every breath
Every breeze
Every memory
Every idea
Everywhere is where you are to me
Such poignant words that I can totally relate to!
I wish I could say that you will recover from your heartbreaking loss but you never will (I know because our son died 27 years ago) but I can promise you will learn to deal with your grief and the acute pain WILL ease slightly with time
Thinking of you
Sharon
xxx
So beautifully written and such beautiful pictures of Tilda. I’m so sorry Jennie xxxx
You have so many beautiful photos of you and Matilda together. The love and bond between you both is in every photo. I wish this was not happening to you and I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. Your husband, William and Esther will help to get you through day by day and I wish and pray a rainbow baby will one day soon come to you to help you through the future. You are in my thoughts daily xx
So poignant, so tragically sad, my heart aches for you. Such beautiful pictures of a gorgeous baby girl and her mummy, such an unbreakable bond between the two of you, no matter what, that is clear xx
Every single word is loaded with pain. I am so so sorry, again, and always.
xxxx
Oh Jennie I’ve wept for you reading this. It’s beautiful. Tilda will always be everywhere for you but I wish with all my heart she was still in your arms xxx
As a mum my heart breaks for you every time I read your posts. I read all your posts but don’t know what to say as I feel my words are just meaningless and won’t bring you comfort. But know that since I heard your news I do think of you regularly.
Hugs x
And Tilda will be forever in your heart, and watching over you all, we all only wish she could be with you in your arms xx
The name that is never spoken. That makes me the most sad 🙁 I hope we can all keep Tilda’s name spoken infinitely. I think of you all and send love and hugs xxx
I am crying too much to choose the words to write.
Once again, I’m sorry for the loss of your baby daughter, Esther and Williams’s little sister, a cousin, a granddaughter, a friend at playgroup. So much to so many people. Her name will always be spoken and written by us.
Rest in peace, darling Matilda Mae xxx
Beautiful writing that tugs my heart, though I can never know your whole pain. Her photos still take my breath away! Such a perfect baby girl, lovely Matilda Mae. x x x
just so beautifully written jennie and beautiful pics of baby tilda xxxx
Such a lovely eloquent piece of writing x