One third of a year
4 out of 12
Four long months
Trying to live with out my baby girl
Existing
Doing
Getting by
Getting through
I am so scared
Absolutely terrified
Of starting to forget
Her hair
Her face
Her smile
Her touch
Her chubby little fingers
Her bubbly baby laugh
Her chattering
Her giggling
Her smell
Her beautiful baby smell
I miss waking up to her in the morning
So scared I’ll forget her touch
Her warm mouth
Her nuzzling
Her desperate need to be close
So close
I miss having her close
I miss the kisses
The cuddles
The coy looks
Shy smiles
The cheekiness
The determination
The chewing
The dribbling
I miss so much
So much that can never be replaced
Never had again
I miss my daughter
And it breaks my heart that she is never coming back
One third of a year
4 out of 12
Four long months
Trying to live with out my baby girl
Existing
Doing
Getting by
Getting through
I am so scared
Absolutely terrified
Of starting to forget
Thinking of you x
I still cannot believe it has been so long. I cannot wait to see you. xxxxx
Thinking of you too. X
Sending love and hugs Jennie, thinking of you, as always xx
I know it’s so so hard, but you will never ever forget baby Tilda. She is with you in all that you do. X
Jennie, you will never, ever forget her. Lots of love xx
This post is a long list of reasons why you will never forget her. Thinking of you Jennie. Xxx
Have you read the ‘Remember’ poem by Christina Rosetti?
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
You will never forget her x
You will never forget her xxx
You will never forget her, Jennie. None of us who have been touched by her life will forget either.
Eleanor xxxx
I’m so happy that you wrote this because I’m sure that, even if you were to forget some of those things, the act of reading this back to yourself would trigger the sensory memories of her touch, her smell, her movements, her sounds to flood your brain and she’ll
come rushing back. Don’t be afraid Jennie. I don’t believe you’ll forget these things, but if every now and then over the years you lose your connection to the memories (you’ll never lose the memories themselves) God will leave you little triggers hidden all over your life, you just have to look for them and the memories will come. X x x
Jennie, I never had the pleasure of knowing beautiful laughing baby Tilda in life, but I will never forget her now she sleeps. And I know her mummy won’t ever lose that cosmic bond that imprints every tiny detail of her baby’s being into her very body and soul. Please don’t be scared. I feel so very sure you’ll always always know her by heart. Mummys just do. Thinking of you, as always, and sending the love and comfort of a stranger, Jilly xxx
Jennie i am thinking of you you will never forget baby Tilda as i am sure others will not too xxx
Thinking of you *HUGE HUGS* xx
It must feel like an eternity. I’m so sorry for your loss x x
You’ll never forget her & nor will we. She’s unforgettable x
Jennie – I haven’t commented for a while because I never really know what to say but I do still think of you all often. Your memories might shift and change and they might become slightly diluted with time but they will always be there. MM is within you, in your heart, in your soul, in your mind. You won’t be loving her or missing her any less if your memories aren’t so vivid.
You will always be able to recall them from the deepest recesses of your mind with a trigger – think of your post about music – how just the opening bars of a song can instantly transport you back to a certain place, a certain time..a memory you hadn’t thought about in ages..but you are there, living that moment, even for a short while. It might not be a piece of music, but in the months and years to come there will be triggers.
I came across these quotes by that old bear Winnie the Pooh and you know, he might be a silly old bear at times but sometimes I think he knows what he is talking about:-
“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together… there is something
you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger
than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing
is, even if we’re apart, I’ll always be with you.”
“If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together, keep me in your
heart. I’ll stay there forever.”
-Winnie the Pooh
Best wishes xx
You will never ever forget. Ever.
You’ll never forget, thinking of you xx