One baby learned to crawl
One tired baby put to bed after a gentle evening feed
One heart stopped beating
One baby stopped breathing
One Mummy screamed into the night
One Daddy tried in vain
One fast drive to the hospital
One long slow lonely journey home
One family forever broken
Two siblings shocked and confused
Two parents grieving and bruised
One blog
The way to get through
The darkest, loneliest earliest nights
One week gone
A break away
Another week gone
One month
One planner
One writer
One thinker
One creator
One casket
One wooden star
One funeral
One cremation
Two months gone
One inquest
One death certificate
One solitary cause of death
Sudden Infant Death
So many questions
To which there are no answers
One wonderful holiday
Three months dead
One first birthday
One wooden boat
One body sent to the sea
One walk
Many walks
One auction
Many prizes
Such kind and generous donations and bids
One family
So many wonderful friends
One blogger
One amazing community
100 days
Without Matilda Mae
So long and yet no time at all.
We miss you Matilda Mae x
Heartbreaking. I can’t believe it’s 100 days already. Sending you my love x
One amazing mummy, a lovely friend and an inspiring writer. I am so so sorry jennie xxxxxxx
One wonderful writer – a brilliant and beautiful piece of writing Jennie. And, one very proud angel in the sky xx Thinking of you xx
One strong family, thousands of people thinking of them x
One inspiring and beautiful friend. Love you, Jennie. Always in my thoughts, even when it may not seem like it. Still can’t believe and don’t want it to be true xx
One strong family, with the brightest star in the sky. The walk looks beautiful xx
It seems like a strange thing to say, but I want to say WELL DONE to you Jennie for not just surviving this 100 days without your beautiful daughter, but for living them with such bravery and grace and selflessness and honesty. I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone take the worst life can offer and keep sifting the grains of beauty and happiness out of the sands of grief day after day in such an amazing way, allowing grief to find you honestly but also bouncing up off the ground when you can (which is often). You are an absolute inspiration and I’m so amazed, but so, so, so sad. When I die, hopefully when I’m an old, old lady I have a serious date in my next-world schedule to see you and Matilda Mae together again together reunited. After being reunited with whichever loved ones wait for me, I think that will be top of my list of things to do on the other side. I’ll keep that date for sure. xxxxxx
Me too x x x
Yes. Exactly this xxxxx
I couldn’t have put that better myself.
Thinking of you always Jennie. X
What a beautiful way to say it – I think there’ll be quite a few of us making this date. Through your darkest days you inspire us all – I’m sorry you have a need to xxx
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Oh Jennie bless you – you amazing lady are so so brave – it is so unbearable to even imagine & SIDS is so utterly cruel because of the hideous fact it strikes from absolutely nowhere…..I wish there was just one way out of 100 that this whole thing would go away because speaking as a fellow mummy – no mummy should have their baby taken from them in this completely senseless & unexplainable way. Thinking of you as always & always remembering your shining star. Hugs for you all & look at what you’ve achieved for The Lullaby Trust xxx
Oh Jennie how can it be 100 days? It hurts me no less than it did the very first moment I read. You have came this far and already achieved amazing things, may your beautiful writing continue to help. I hope your beautiful girl can see all that her Mummy has done xxx
Some many beautiful words for one beautiful little girl xx
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One family that will always be together, wherever you are… and 100 nights with shining stars. You are one amazing person who really writes wonderful.
I can’t believe it’s been so long already Jennie, it seems like only this morning that I read your tweet, like only yesterday that I held her. We will always remember that smile and those eyes.
Absolutely painful to read but I am sure not as painful as it has been to live through. My thoughts are with you.