Thursday is Tilda’s birthday
Our baby daughter would be one
If she were still alive
Sadly she is not
And we have chosen this day
Her special day
To send her ashes to sea
To finally set her free.
David has built a beautiful boat.
The ideal scenario is that we set it alight
Ashes inside
And it drifts gently out to sea.
We know that it is not likely to be as easy
Or as poetic as this.
We have to have alternatives.
We have to be prepared
With a way of saying goodbye that we are truly happy with
If the original idea does not go to plan.
The dream is that Tilda lays in the boat her Daddy has built
We cover her with Balsa wood stars
Set the boat and our baby alight
And let them drift out to sea
We want Tilda to be in the sea
So that we can be with her wherever we are
She will shine bright as a star in the sky
She will shimmer on every ripple of water as our star of the sea
She will be every where we are
Always
If the conditions are against us
This Thursday afternoon
We will scatter her ashes directly into the sea
We will send with them
The balsa wood stars
Pink and purple flowers
And all our hopes and dreams that will now never ever be
I want Matilda to know what I wished for her
The life I had planned for her
For her and me
Thursday will be a day to send her bubble kisses to the sky
To tell her with each breath how much she is loved
And show her with each tear how much she is missed
Thursday
We will
Set adrift
Set alight
Our baby girl
And we will set her spirit free
Until we meet again Matilda Mae
I love you x
So beautifully written, I have thought of you today hoping the sun has helped you find the special place for Matilda. Sending you lots of strength and thoughts for all of you x x x x x
Sending hugs. You’re all in my thoughts. xx
Sending hugs to you and your family… the sun will shine on Thursday, I just know it and i will be thinking of you all x
I’m thinking of you all. I hope this week, and Thursday in particular, is what it needs to be. Sending you love and peace xxx
I really hope the sun shines for you on Thursday and it all goes to plan, but oh how I wish it didn’t have to be this way. I wish I could turn back time for you Jennie. Love and hugs to you xxxx
That’s a beautiful boat, well done David. I hope that you get to release Tilda into the sea as you’d like to, if the sea is calm it will be perfect. I do think your contingency plan is going to be beautiful as well. I’ll be thinking of you.
That picture never ever fails to bring a tear to my eye. I love it. I love love love the way you are both looking at each other, especially Tilda. She knows! She knows just how much you love her, always have and always will. What you are planning to do on Thursday is going to take so much strength and it sounds so perfect. I never totally understood the sea thing, I don’t think. Not until I just read it here- she will be everywhere, as the ocean surrounds us. It makes sense to me now. I am thinking of you so so much and hoping with everything I can that it all goes right on Thursday xxxxx
sat crying at your beautiful words again. It just continues to break my heart I feel for you so much. Hope Thursday is beautiful for you all xxx
Made me well up n have a cry. Xx
Jennie before you send her off have you considered the memorial jewlery that you
Can have made from some of her ashes? It might be something to consider as you can wear her close and maybe something Esther would like in the future? There are lots of different things from diamonds to less expensive rings and pendants. X
I really hope it goes to plan for you, and for Tilda. This is not how it should be, she should be here with you, but she will be with you always. I admire how lovely you can write about something so raw and emotional. Sending so much strength for this week especially Thursday xx
Thinking of you all Xx
It seems like the right thing – the sea. Though I can never imagine how it must feel. But being surrounded by the sea seems some small comfort. Will be thinking of you on Thursday and hope the conditions can be just right xx
We will send bubbles to the sky on Thursday afternoon. I hope you are able to set her free in the way you wish x x x
Beautiful poem, beautiful boat, beautiful family.
We are thinking of you x
Your plans are so beautiful and I really hope that the conditions are perfect. I would prepare Esther and William for Mummy and Daddy being very upset though – it is ok for them to see that, but maybe good to gently explain. There is no doubt little Matilda Mae knows how very much she is loved. Will be thinking of you and praying on Thursday and so wish it were different and she was here with you xxx
Such beautiful words. I will be thinking of you all on Thursday as always. Xx
Beautiful and tragic. I agree with ghostwritermummy, I didn’t understand the sea thing and you made it make sense. We will blow bubble kisses for Tilda on Thursday and do pink and purple star printing. Thinking of you. Remember old treasured memories and try to make some new happy ones too. Xx
Your writing is so eloquent and serene, I truly hope you get to say farewell as you would like, in her little boat xx
Thinking of you all as you work your way towards this special, special day. What a perfect way to set her free and the boat is just beautiful. What a clever daddy! We will say a special prayer for Tilda on Thursday to speed her on her way xx
It all sounds so beautiful Jennie, I really hope you get the right conditions and that everything goes as you have planned. Tilda knows the life you had planned for her, I’m sure of that. Lots of love – think of you, always xx
I hope Thursday will go exactly as you wish it to go, it is a beautiful goodbye.