I am so desperately sorry to hear of your tragic news. I just cant believe it. Matilda was the brightest star in our class. All the babies & mums alike gravitated towards her. She was just perfect in every way. So cruel. You are the most amazing mum that I have ever met. You gave Matilda so much love to carry her through to adulthood & beyond. Keep strong & please know you are so well loved by many & we are all here for you.

I remember the first class I attended and remember seeing her beautiful face, big eyes and that infectious smile, it was one thing that I looked forward to seeing each week at class ! She was a beautiful baby and she will continue to be one with the angels, smiling and entertaining everyone !!

I know you will have so many messages saying the same thing, but I needed to let you know how much your blogs have moved me. I am so sorry and truly my heart breaks for you. You really are an amazing person, and the most incredible mummy. I only saw Matilda a couple of times in the class, but when Max told me the news, the memory that came was of you sat feeding her whilst we all pretended to have a sledge race. I never had the courage to breast feed in public with Heidi, and it was so lovely to see you two together. Matilda had just cried for you, and she was so content snuggled close. having since read some of what you’ve written, I have promised myself every day to try to be as good a mum and as strong a person as you. to do as much as I can with H and to cherish every little moment, even the difficult ones. I’ve lit a candle for Matilda, I’ve read Whatever Next every day to my daughter (H’s favourite book too) and I’ve blown bubbles all in memory of your beautiful baby girl. Like everyone else, you and your family are in my thoughts, but I wanted you to know how many people you have touched. I’m sure Matilda Mae is looking down at her mummy with very proud eyes.

I just wanted to say that I have come across Matilda’s story through a friend who knows you and it has touched my heart in a very profound way. I cannot even imagine the pain and longing left in your heart for your beautiful baby. I have prayed for you and your family and I hope you find peace and comfort in that so many people who never even knew Matilda have been touched by her life. The loss of your precious baby has taught many just how precious and fragile life is.

Sadly i dont know you that well as the times we have met we have both had our hands full with our brood. Although I feel that i know a little bit about you & your family as i occasionally read your fabulous blog. Your honesty has comforted me on the days when i dont feel i am winning as a mother and has given me endless inspiration for fun play time as you do so much with your children.
I wanted to say how truly sorry i am that Matilda has gone. You and your family have not left my thoughts since i read about it on Sunday and its having such a deep & profound affect on my husband and I to know of such sorrow. It doesn’t stop there though, I have been contacted by so many friends who have seen me comment on your facebook posts, none of whom know you or Matilda and they have also expressed their sadness, willing you all to find a way through this.
There is so much love in the world right now all willing you to be ok, all through Matilda.
I met you when you were pregnant with Matilda, you looked amazing and carried her so well. I met Matilda when you first brought her to Bumps & Babes and she was so beautiful and i remember her smelling so clean and new. The last time I saw you and your babies was at Jumping Beans just before Christmas and i remember thinking how effortlessly you made motherhood look with all your children wearing such big smiles, especially the littlest one. Matilda was sitting watching Esther & William. I kept checking on J who was sitting next to her and i saw you walk over to Matilda scoop her up, kiss her and start feeding her as she lay in your arms, you were stroking her face so tenderly. She was so happy & content.
All babies are precious, but those that are chosen to leave before their time are doubly so. Matilda will never be forgotten. Her name is already channeling so much love, even from people you dont know and the reminder of what is and isn’t important in this life. Such a huge legacy for such a small person.

The moment you left your family little angel
Thousands of hearts stopped beating
Only nine months but you touched so many lives little angel
Thousands of hearts are aching
I close my eyes to see the brightest smile little angel
Thousands of hearts are shattered
Chocolate eyes that had so much left to see little angel
Thousands of hearts are broken
Your mummy has written and will continue to write little angel
Thousands will see such beautiful things
The life of you Matilda Mae will be celebrated little angel
Thousands will remember you
Fly high little angel and shine bright x x x

I am not a woman of words but I have followed you for 2 years or so since you had your twins and I had my second Argc baby and I feel I know you…..
I am so sure that you have heard this so many times this week but I cannot imagine what you have been going through…
I have been going to bed with the image of MM ingrained upon my mind and I find it difficult to truly comprehend what is happening to you and your family….
But I have to say is what strikes is you are a wonderful mother… Never doubt that!!
I do not know what else can be said as their are no words but I wanted to tell you that your situation had touched me in a way i never knew possible….
Nothing else to say other than you have a beautiful way of expressing yourself as tragic as it may be………

I have started this numerous times but no words seem to express everything I want to say. Although we are not close I have wept buckets for you and your beautiful family. I have read every word you have written and often wanted to reply but not known how I could possibly comfort you. The absolute strength that you have shown through this incredibly dark time has been a guiding light for all. The courage you have displayed will comfort Esther and William and make Matilda Mae proud. All that you are will make David remember exactly why he chose such a perfect girl to be his soulmate and the mother of his children. You are a wonderful mother with a heart full of love that you share it with all, even when it is hard to see the point.
For someone so beautiful and innocent to be taken so soon is hard to understand. I can only hope that as she watches us all from heaven she understands that she is sorely missed. Her memory will be cherished by thousands through your amazing words. Your little angel was only a few weeks younger than my youngest and we would read every little milestone she had and almost watch them grow together. Thinking that maybe they too could have been friends. Her beautiful smile and gorgeous eyes light up our screens, I can only imagine how well she would have done for a whole room!!
The Nairns are a close family, that I have witnessed, and I have no doubts that you will never be alone in your pain. I am so glad to hear the Julie will soon be close for you to lean on. Please do not blame yourself like you said. Neither you nor David could have done anything different. Just know that Matilda Mae had a marvellous life. She was incredibly loved from the moment you found out you were pregnant. Looking through all of your photos she knew it. She knew how cherished she was and how lucky she was to be part of your wonderful family. Esther and William know it too.
My words no matter how much I want them to be, will never be enough. I can never help you as much as your words have helped me and others. But if there is anything I can do just say. I will be there in a heartbeat.
We will be blowing pink bubbles for Matilda Mae to see on the 7th.
I hope that you and David can find comfort in everyone’s words. You are all constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Amazing you. Jennie, you were so brave to come today. Nobody can imagine how horribly hard it was but you did it for Esther and William.
My first memories of you are so clear. You starting Funtrain pregnant with Matilda and Esther and William looking so tiny. You beamed from ear to ear as they took to the classes like a duck to water. When I think of you I think of the proud, happy new mummy in raptures at every little thing they learned. Then Matilda came along – beautiful, brown eyed baby girl. You made it look so easy – twins and a tiny baby. Then she grew and became the hilarious little character that was. I am convinced that she thought you brought her to a hall where we all entertained her!
We all want to help and support you as much as we can Jennie. No one can begin to imagine the horror of the grief and it must be so hard to see everyone getting on with their lives. I know you must want to curl up in a ball and just wake up and it all be a horrible lie.
Your children are everything to you – I know that by the way were and are with them all. You will pick yourself like you did today and try and get Esther and William back into some sort of normality. It will never feel normal to you my darling and being a mother is a selfless job sometimes – William and Esther need you more than they need anyone else.

You know, there is something quite powerful about you : when I read what you write, I would like to do anything for you. I do not want to hurt you because you are like a little caterpillar who will curl up to defend herself. You are a charming person : as soon as we know you, we just want to be loved by you. We just want to help you be the beautiful butterfly your writing lets us have glimpses of.