Today has been a difficult day for David and I.
Our beautiful niece turned two and we spent all afternoon with family at her party.
It was a lovely afternoon and Esther and William had a wonderful time with all their cousins.
I struggled.
I struggled because all the Henleys were together and Tilda should have been there.
She should have been crawling around getting under everyone’s feet and trying to join in all the toddler fun.
I struggled because Matilda Mae never had and now never will have a birthday of her own.
I cannot believe that in just a few weeks we would have been planning her first birthday party.
What a pretty party girl she would be!
Life just doesn’t seem fair.
I am not certain anything is ever going to feel right for us ever again.
Baby Tilda will forever be Baby Tilda.
But I can’t help wondering what kind of toddler she might have been?
Toddler Tilda?
I think she may have looked a little like Toddler Me.
Do you?
Baby Tilda
Toddler Me
How can anything ever feel right for you again?
Speechless.
Saying a prayer for MM and for you, her special family.
Yes I think she probably would’ve been a mini you! God bless you Jennie and Baby Tilda xx
I guess family events must bring so much comfort yet so much pain at the moment, I can’t even begin to imagine the emotions you must be feeling. I think she would definitely have looked like you as a toddler looking at the photos together 🙂
Life is not fair. This would not have happened and Tilda would still be here if it was. She certainly had your gorgeous dark eyes. xx
Oh yes! She has your eyes. I think you’re right, nothing will be the same again but I think you will find a new normal, somehow.
xxxxx
she would have been the very image of you Jennie, beautiful and full of love xxx
I’ve always thought that she looks like you. Still thinking of you with such an ache in my heart. xxxx
I have heard it said that grieving is as much about the loss of future plans as it is about loss of your loved one, so your loss must feel overwhelming. Your time with Baby Tilda had only just begun. You will one day realise that you have a different normal than the one you had planned. It will never be “right” to be without her, but you are always her mum, so you will never be truly without her. And, one day, it will be ok, please remember that. Remember what you wrote, you want to make her proud. Sometimes it’s enough just to keep breathing, never mind being strong.
Oh these are beautiful words – and I’m certain very true. Jennie she really does look like you! Eyes and nose for sure! xx
Matilda is so gorgeous Jennie, I think she certainly has your eyes, beautiful girl. Sending you my love and all my thoughts with you tonight xxx
….and your smile xx
No I don’t think anything will ever feel right again Jennie, there will always be a Tilda shaped hole in your lives, but fill it with happy memories and love from your friends and family. I think that Tilda would have been the spitting image of you, warm chocolate eyes and a huge smile to melt your heart. See her in the mirror Jennie.
Definitely your beautiful ‘button’ nose, your chin & cheeks that you just want to pinch! x x x
she certainly looks like you but with big shinny cartoon eyes, gorgeous angel who watches you from the the sky.
Definitely..very much so! She had your eyes.
She was so like you, I’m sure she would. I’m not surprised you have had a tough day. That must have been so hard. Thinking of you all Jennie. Lots of love. xxx