Today David and I are in London with Matilda Mae.
We are at a wedding.
Esther and William are entertaining Granny and Grandad at home.
I have been looking forward to this night away for ages.
I bought new shoes, a £240 dress.
The wedding was at 4.30pm.
By 9.15pm I was in my Melba nursing pyjamas snuggling up with Matilda Mae.
This is where I want to be.
Snuggled up with my baby in my arms.
I am missing the toddler twins too.
So why am I always seeking an escape?
I love lying here watching Matilda sleep.
She is so peaceful.
So tiny on the expanse of crisp white hotel sheets.
I am drinking her in and wishing we had more times like these.
Have I really missed out because I have never been a mother of one?
Her little hands are resting on my chest.
She keeps reattaching herself to me for a sleepy feed.
We could not be closer than we are in this moment.
It is beautiful.
I am totally and utterly in love.
There is nowhere I would rather be.
Though I would love to have my beautiful two with me here too.
I am going to read this post and remember this feeling when a day at home is hard
Because above all else
Is love
Love Me!!
A moment to be held forever in your heart x
Beautiful post, more poignant now than ever. Treasure this post xxxx
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Jennie, I’m finding myself reading so many of your blog posts tonight, and with such a heavy heart trying to imagine your loss … Matilda Mae was such a beautiful little girl, and so obviously very loved!!! You have such wonderful memories here, and so many beautiful photographs of your little angel! I wish I could reach out and give you a big hug xx
“I am going to read this post and remember this feeling when a day at home is hard” this line made me cry for you, thinking of you x
I adore this post Jennie. X
Beautiful and now of course so heartbreakingly poignant. Lots of love xxxxxx