I cannot quite believe it but we have made it, Matilda and Me, 36 weeks together, growing bigger and stronger with every day.

Now we have about 4 weeks left until we finally meet, before we stop being one entity and get to know each other’s unique identity.

For this I cannot wait.

I cannot wait to meet my daughter.

According to my NCT email Matilda is now about 46cm long and around 2.5kg in weight. 5lbs and 5 ounces. Esther and William weighed less than this the day we brought them home!

Matilda is already perfectly formed and will not grow much now in length before she is born. She will pile on the weight though putting on as much as 1kg in the next four weeks.

I hope that she is not too big though. I am worried that she is going to feel like a giant baby in comparison to the twins.

Today I have been sorting through all of Esther’s old clothes and the new baby size from Mothercare seems enormous compared to what we are used to.

We have finished our NCT classes now. I am feeling quite confident about the birth and I am also happy to have met some lovely couples and I hope to have made some new friends.

Because Esther and William were so vulnerable in their early days at home I was not really able to make any baby friends and with no family local to me either I often felt isolated and alone. I am hoping that won’t be so much the case this time.

I also think that the season will help. Having Baby arrive with the summer time will make getting out and about much easier and meeting people for sunny afternoons in pub gardens means that Esther and William can come along too. If it was winter then people might not be so keen to sit inside with their new baby and two snotty toddlers. But summer the germs are less agressive, we can be outside and everyone is in a much more relaxed state of mind. Please, please let us have a sunny summer this year!

This Easter weekend we have been busy getting things ready for Matilda Bump. It is quite time consuming stuff but she now has three drawers of clothes, vests, sleepsuits and other. I want to keep her in sleepsuits for as long as possible though. I remember that I cried when I first put Esther in a dress. I want Matilda to stay a baby for as long as possible.

As well as clothes I have been sorting bedding. She is lucky that she has lots of lovely GroBags handed down from Esther and some beautiful blankets too.

I bought some lovely storage baskets from Next to keep all her bedding in.

Her beautiful moses basket is ready and her cot is being used, as Esther’s and William’s were orginally, for a changing station and storage.

The next thing I need to do is sort out all our newborn toys, clean the baby gym, swing and bouncy chair. I also need to steam clean our car seat. How do you even do that?

One major thing that is really starting to worry me is that we still do not have a pram!

This week has been lovely as it is the Easter holidays and so David has been able to be with us so much more, especially with the Bank Holidays too. I love having him around especially now that even getting shoes and socks on myself is a challenge let alone looking after the twins. Esther and William are actually incredibly easy to look after at the moment. Their language is coming on so much and they understand even more than they speak so communication between us is good.

Over the next few weeks I am really going to try and get them used to the idea of a baby. At the moment they kiss and cuddle my tummy and say Hello Baby and Kiss Baby. But they say it to their own bellies too so I don’t think we are quite there!

Today has been a lovely day. My hospital bags are now packed and in the car. My feet are pretty thanks to a pedicure and my eyebrows are all beautifully shaped. I am ready and raring to go.

I think that the next four weeks are going to drag though. I keep imagining that I am having pains and thinking that she may be coming but I think it is all in my mind.

My mind is incredibly active, day and night, and I am really not sleeping very well. I am having some very detailed dreams, some of which have been quite disturbing. Hormones have a lot to answer for I believe.

It is amazing to think that by the end of this week Matilda Bump will officially be considered full term. I hope that we make it that far. Just enough time for her to gain some more weight to insulate and support her after the birth and ensure that she is able to come straight home, or at least at the same time as me.

That is what I am most looking forward to with Baby Number Three, is not having to leave her side on the day that she is born.

I want to do it all, just as a mummy should.