The short answer is yes or at least I feel stressed much of the time. This feeling comes from time or lack of it, and deciding how best to use it.
I am loving being a Mum but 5 months in and I am exhausted!
I seem to be constantly battling with myself about what to do with my time.
For example, should I write this blog or sort out washing and put away clothes?
Should I have a sleep or clean the bathroom?
Should I let the babies sleep or when one wakes, wake the other to keep them in sync with one another?
Is it okay to leave the babies in their bouncy chairs in the bathroom for 10 minutes while I have a shower?
Should I eat a chocolate biscuit or a banana?
Such trivial things, but nothing feels straight forward anymore and I am sure that is a sign of stress.
I think on top of that I am always comparing myself to other people or what I imagine other people must be like. Thinking, how do they look so good, have an immaculate house and still spend so much time playing with their baby. How do people fit it all in?
I guess the answer is not to try, is to prioritise.
As a teacher I quite like lists and timetables so maybe that is the key?
A timetable showing how we will spend baby awake time and what I will do each day during naps.
Perhaps something like this …
Monday
6.30am Feed and nappy
7.15am Back to sleep
8.30am Feed, nappy, play
10.30am Nap – have a shower, sort washing and clean bathroom
11.30am Feed, nappy, play
1.30pm Nap – lunch, clean kitchen, lap top time
3.30pm Feed, nappy, play
5.00pm Bath
5.30pm Feed
6.00pm Bed – make and have dinner, couple time
It seems so easy when I type it all out like that, so why do I have this feeling of stress?
I think that I am very worried about the babies’ health and keeping them safe from germs and harm. We are doing everything we can to ensure that they are not readmitted to hospital.
I feel stress because I love feeding the babies myself but this means that I cannot really lose much weight or have any time to myself.
I should not be stressed really.
I should be so happy and so thankful. I am so blessed.
Perhaps typing this out is what I needed to see how silly I am being.
Thank you WordPress I am going to try and be less stressed out from now on.
I really am quite lucky really x
1.30pm
I think any baby’s first year is stressful, but when they are premmie, its 10x and you have twins so that’s 20x!!!
We worry about colds and flu, we worry that they’re not doing enough, that they’re doing too much and won’t gain weight, its very stressful.
It gets easier I think, well it has for me, I still get stressed but not as much.
Jennie, You’re always on my thoughts whenever I stress about something. I think I stress for the same reasons you do and whenever I think about how I should organise my time, I always tell myself with admiration that you manage to look after two children when I have only one ! I think you’re doing really well !!!