Back on the Sidelines

After a wonderful but exhausting time at Brit Mums Live 2012 I am back at home on the sidelines of my family.

How is it possible to feel like an outsider looking in at my own family? But that is exactly how I feel.

Matilda Mae was so beautifully behaved at Brit Mums. Now we are home and she is refusing to feed and sleep meaning I cannot be with Esther and William.

And if I did try I am sure they would just ask for Daddy!

How has it come to this?

Through a combination of late pregnancy, illness and nursing a newborn I seem to be playing less and less of a role in our family life and it is breaking my heart.

Has anyone else ever felt like this?

I feel like I am missing out on so much.

At Brit Mums I had Matilda in her Baby Bjorn all day which I am happy to do at home as long as I get to have a shower first and that has not been a possibilty today. Nor has breakfast!

Where has my self confidence gone?

I need to make a plan.

I want my Mummy mojo back.

Picnic in the Garden

Exciting times are ahead in the Edspire household (and garden!) as Esther and William are really starting to understand imaginative play and role play. They have so many words, phrases and sentences at their disposal now that every activity is … Continue reading